Fever seems to be getting worse.
The interactions aren’t helping.
How do you avoid someone you want to be on top of
or in any position your imagination can come up with.
Can’t you see I am desperately trying to avoid any conversation.
but you stop me and force me to acknowledge you.
Part of me just wants to let it spiral out of control.
Let jesus take the wheel.
This is what I want.
and I am tired of denying it.
but I don’t think that would be good for anyone.
The average person thinks about sex 15 times a day,
I think about that in the one hour we are next to each other.
Maybe what I need is a good replacement.
How very male of me.
These ideas keep going from worse to worst.